Thursday, September 29, 2011

Today's Nuts and Bolts (besides me)

My mom went into AA when I was 15. Alateen, a group for children of alcoholics, saved my life and the Twelve Steps and the Serenity Prayer became lifelong tools that I try to use.

God, grant me the Serenity to Accept the things I cannot Change,
The Courage to Change the things I can,
And the Wisdom to Know the Difference.


What I CANNOT Change today:
* my high calcium blood test result
* whatever the results of the other blood tests are going to be
* the OUTCOME

What I CAN Change:
* what I focus (obsess) on
* what I do today
* what I put in my mouth
* what I put in my head

I need to keep this in mind and focus on what I can change.

I'm wearing my Serenity Prayer bracelet on my right (non-dominant) wrist today to help me remember. It bothers me on my non-dominant wrist which, in turn, serves as a constant reminder.




And I really need to find my silliness. It's hidden underneath my anxiety. But I need to get it out and wear it. I'm sick of this other shit.


Love,
Jenn

2 comments:

  1. I bet your silliness is hiding somewhere in those size 16 capris!

    btw...I'm wearing size 16 capris today too!

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  2. Well, you fit into them much better than me. I'm going home to take them off and make sure my lower half is still there.

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