My mom went into AA when I was 15. Alateen, a group for children of alcoholics, saved my life and the Twelve Steps and the Serenity Prayer became lifelong tools that I try to use.
God, grant me the Serenity to Accept the things I cannot Change,
The Courage to Change the things I can,
And the Wisdom to Know the Difference.
What I CANNOT Change today:
* my high calcium blood test result
* whatever the results of the other blood tests are going to be
* the OUTCOME
What I CAN Change:
* what I focus (obsess) on
* what I do today
* what I put in my mouth
* what I put in my head
I need to keep this in mind and focus on what I can change.
I'm wearing my Serenity Prayer bracelet on my right (non-dominant) wrist today to help me remember. It bothers me on my non-dominant wrist which, in turn, serves as a constant reminder.
And I really need to find my silliness. It's hidden underneath my anxiety. But I need to get it out and wear it. I'm sick of this other shit.