Sunday, January 29, 2012

Ten Year Anniversary Of A New Beginning

While writing my last blog and saying something about Nina being 19 years and 1 week old, I realized that today was the ten year anniversary of Charlie waking me up, telling me he was in love with another woman, and walking out the door. For good.

Today is the anniversary of my plummet to the depths of confusion, self-doubt, and -I hate to say it- despair.

Or at least that was what I thought.........

In hindsight, today is the 10 year anniversary of the Beginning of Me. Me without someone telling me what to do. Me not feeling "less than" or "not good enough" all the time. Me making my own decisions, being responsible for my own life.

Divorce happens to lots of people. It's a trauma, a life-changing moment, frequently a time of grief.

But that's not all it is.

With every goodbye, there is a hello.

Happy Anniversary to Me!

3 comments:

  1. "...the Beginning of Me. Me without someone telling me what to do. Me not feeling "less than" or "not good enough" all the time. Me making my own decisions, being responsible for my own life."

    I can relate to that. My life has followed a very different path than yours (no divorce, for one thing), but I have arrived at a similar point of making my own decisions. I listen (a little bit, anyway) to relatives, friends, and others, but I make my own decisions. One big change was when I stopped viewing medical advice as "doctors' orders" and started looking at them as comments from people in long white coats who couldn't possibly learn anything meaningful about me in a 10-minute doctor appointment.

    Best wishes to you.

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  2. oh how amazing you are Miss Jenn. You are a strong, successful, honest human being that has touched an incredible number of lives, young and old. i am honored to be a part of your chosen family. charlie may have made the decision that day but the rest of us benefited from his mistake.

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  3. I have been divorced for 2 years now. I like what you said about the past feeling despair, confusion, and self doubt. I still feel thoughts things but not as often as I use to. I am instead feeling better about my self but still have self doubt and not happy with being fat. I have made a promise to myself to walk and drink one bottle of water daily. Thank you for blogging I enjoy reading your blog and it is helping me.

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