Friday, August 31, 2012

A Sigh Of Relief

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I made it through today without losing control. 

Trader Joe's oatmeal for breakfast.
Six baby peaches.
My beans and sausage for lunch.
Out to dinner with Gay for dinner.

And I tried to be like my friend, Barb.  I ordered what I wanted (salisbury steak, corn on the cob, and a salad) but also got a to-go container at the beginning of my meal.  I put half my steak and corn in the to-go container......

..........................................and miracle of miracles...................

..........................................................................................................................I left it there.

Now, I have dinner to give Tyler when he comes over later this evening. 



I, Jennifer Jean Branch Neil, didn't do this.  I still feel like I have NO control. 

So, I believe my Higher Power or my guardian angels or God or my healthy subconscious (which I don't even think I've had the privilege to meet!) or something outside myself was in control. 

Have you ever made a good decision when in fact you were more set up to make a bad decision? 

 It's like somehow the good decision makes you rather than the other way around. 

That's what it was like tonight.

Personally, I choose to say 'thank you' to God for being in charge of the food decisions today.  Good job, God.  Much better than I would have done.

So, here's my tentative goal:

I want to have more good days than bad.  It's a humble goal, but that's how I feeling right now. 

Deezer, my blog friend who lives across the ocean, basically suggested yesterday that I get off my butt and quit complaining.  Deezer, thank you!  You suggested I set a goal of losing 30 pounds by Christmas.  I don't think I can do that, but I do think 21 pounds off by Christmas can be done.

So here I am, taking your challenge:

Today -  221.  (Oh, God.... how I hate to type that!)
December 25th - 200. 

My goal.  My GOAL.  My GOAL.   I have a goal again.  I've been goalless for the last couple or three months. 

It feels good to have a G.O.A.L.

I did read back through my blog posts and figured out that my weeks of out of control eating has taken me back to the weight that I was at last January. 

But it didn't take me back to the weight I was at last September. 

Screw you, out of control eating!!!!!!!!  You're not the boss of me!

Love,
Jenny

1 comment:

  1. Hi Jenn...

    Sorry for being harsh in my last comment - but maybe it worked... but i am changing your goal - 22 pounds - i want to see you under the 200!! It will be such a boost morally to see that happen!!

    How's it going with the exercise? As it cools down over there maybe now's the time to commit to 30-45 mins strolling every day...

    I'll be back to nag you if you don't do it! :-)

    well done on filling out the list from the book - its hard, and makes us acknowledge things we'd rather ignore, but its better to have it that way! Good luck Jenn!

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