Thursday, August 30, 2012


And this is who it is......

This is my ONLY enabler. 

Somehow, last night I insinuated that Kara and Barb had enabled me by bringing food to my house.    I don't consider that as enabling. 

I am the one who opens my mouth.  
I am the one who closes my eyes.  
I am the one who makes the decisions. 

My lack of control right now has nothing to do with anybody but me. 

Something is missing.  I don't know what it is,  so let's call it a spark
It's the spark of motivation.  The spark that makes one able to make daily choices based on the future, not on the base needs and wants of right now. 

It's the spark that I had from last September until June.  Right now, it is undetectable. 

And, believe me, I have looked for it.

I don't know know what it is, where it comes from, or where it goes.  I just know that I don't have it right now. 

Do you know where it is?

I love y'all.


  1. Replies
    1. It might have run off in Texas - because I can NEVER find it when I'm there!

  2. Jenn - I really think that blogging every day is helpful, and maybe weighing every second day, so that you can see the numbers more clearly. I think that the main issue here is accountability, you need to really be accountable for everything that you do in your life (like sucking the coating off peanuts - and then eating the nuts! - EW!). Eating is a major issue for girls like you and me - i would happily feast on pizza and beer rather than making my own sandwiches and salads for lunch (with cottage cheese - so far off cheese it shouldn't even be in the name!!).

    I love reading your blog - but enough of the starting tomorrow crap - you've 4 months till silly season - i vote for 30 pounds off by the 25th of December!!

    Give me a hoooooooooooooo-ha if you're with me (army style).

    Come on Jenn! :-)