Tuesday, September 11, 2012


My thoughts have been about 9/11 all morning.   This is an anniversary that touches every American.  But my heart bleeds for those who were intimately touched by this day eleven years ago.  When you've lost a loved one - eleven years is nothing. 

Thinking about what other people could be going through today - remembering loved ones who are no longer here, having flashbacks of "being there" - all my little whiny crap seems .... just like that:  little whiny crap.

So, maybe today is the day to pull my thumb out of my mouth, get off my butt, and be grateful that I am alive - and that my life is so mundane and trouble-free that I can spend time whining about the little things. 

The ability and the freedom to whine about the little things is actually really a gift, isn't it?

Here's my plan for today:
I'm at work now but am leaving at 10 this morning to go with my friend, Judy, to her doctor's appointment in Albuquerque.  When we get home later this afternoon, I plan to take a nap.  I didn't get much sleep last night after Bootsie brought me a dying mouse (that she then proceeded to eat on my bedroom floor) and my dreams were filled with rabies and hantavirus and exploding buildings.  After a nap, I'm going to watch the season premiere of Sons Of Anarchy. 

That's no exercise.
Can I make a commitment to walk around my block one time?  I think I can do that.

Now food.....
This morning, I've had two packets of Trader Joe's instant oatmeal.  This is a good example of my flawed thinking about servings vs. helpings.  ONE packet of instant oatmeal is a serving - 160 calories.  However, it doesn't seem like enough to me so I ate TWO packets - a Jenny helping rather than a serving. 

But I did track it on Sparkpeople.  I'm going to commit to going to the Sparkpeople website every morning when I first get on my computer.  I can't commit to logging everything I eat, but I can commit to checking in.

Right now, I'm drinking coffee with creamer.  Judy is going to bring me a Starbucks Skinny Vanilla Latte when she comes to pick me up to go to Albuquerque. 

For lunch - where ever Judy and I go - I commit to choosing something healthy, low-calorie, but filling.  I'll let you know later what it was.

And tonight, I'll go to my "safe place" - Subway - and get my usual. 

Let's see........ what else can I do today?  Water.  Yuck. 
OK.  I commit to drinking two bottles of water today.  That's not enough but it's two bottles more of water than I usually drink. 

Deezer?  I'm trying!!  Thanks for your advice.  I'm going to do as you suggested - use my blog for the boring purpose of logging what I eat and what I do - at least until I get on my feet again.  And yes!  It's making me CRINGE!!

And today?  220.5

Deep breath.


1 comment:

  1. Hi Jenn! Wow - a blog post while I am still at work, I am impressed....

    I will just log what I ate to bore you to tears...

    bran flakes - 50g
    skim milk (that's like the lowest % fat in it here)
    pasta salad - 50g pasta 20g ham, tiny bit of parmasan cheese, spinach, tomato, red onion, grilled red pepper
    4 chocolates (stupid colleagues brinign them back from holidays)
    1 black coffee and two black teas

    veggie soup for dinner

    Can I ask you something - how come you always eat out? subway / sonic - do you not like cooking that much?? :-( just seems a bit more fun and interesting if you cna eat at home..

    well done on going with your friend though... good Jenny!

    Dee x