My thoughts have been about 9/11 all morning. This is an anniversary that touches every American. But my heart bleeds for those who were intimately touched by this day eleven years ago. When you've lost a loved one - eleven years is nothing.
Thinking about what other people could be going through today - remembering loved ones who are no longer here, having flashbacks of "being there" - all my little whiny crap seems .... just like that: little whiny crap.
So, maybe today is the day to pull my thumb out of my mouth, get off my butt, and be grateful that I am alive - and that my life is so mundane and trouble-free that I can spend time whining about the little things.
The ability and the freedom to whine about the little things is actually really a gift, isn't it?
Here's my plan for today:
I'm at work now but am leaving at 10 this morning to go with my friend, Judy, to her doctor's appointment in Albuquerque. When we get home later this afternoon, I plan to take a nap. I didn't get much sleep last night after Bootsie brought me a dying mouse (that she then proceeded to eat on my bedroom floor) and my dreams were filled with rabies and hantavirus and exploding buildings. After a nap, I'm going to watch the season premiere of Sons Of Anarchy.
That's no exercise.
Can I make a commitment to walk around my block one time? I think I can do that.
This morning, I've had two packets of Trader Joe's instant oatmeal. This is a good example of my flawed thinking about servings vs. helpings. ONE packet of instant oatmeal is a serving - 160 calories. However, it doesn't seem like enough to me so I ate TWO packets - a Jenny helping rather than a serving.
But I did track it on Sparkpeople. I'm going to commit to going to the Sparkpeople website every morning when I first get on my computer. I can't commit to logging everything I eat, but I can commit to checking in.
Right now, I'm drinking coffee with creamer. Judy is going to bring me a Starbucks Skinny Vanilla Latte when she comes to pick me up to go to Albuquerque.
For lunch - where ever Judy and I go - I commit to choosing something healthy, low-calorie, but filling. I'll let you know later what it was.
And tonight, I'll go to my "safe place" - Subway - and get my usual.
Let's see........ what else can I do today? Water. Yuck.
OK. I commit to drinking two bottles of water today. That's not enough but it's two bottles more of water than I usually drink.
Deezer? I'm trying!! Thanks for your advice. I'm going to do as you suggested - use my blog for the boring purpose of logging what I eat and what I do - at least until I get on my feet again. And yes! It's making me CRINGE!!
And today? 220.5