Monday, September 17, 2012

The Five D's of the Weight Loss Journey

Someone shared this with me on Sparkpeople and I really like it. 

Desire: What exactly do you want?
Defense: How are you prepared for the temptations that are bound to come your way?
Dedication: How hard are you willing to work?
Determination: How long are you willing to keep working?
Decision-Making: Are you willing to take total responsibility for the choices you make?

I'm thinking that I would like to ask myself these questions daily - kind of like a morning meditation.  And I would like to answer them very specifically with what I'm thinking about at the time.

Like.... right now,  my answers are:

DesireWhat exactly do I want?  I want to be able to easily get up and down off the floor.  I want to weigh under 200. 
Defense: How am I prepared for the temptations that are bound to come my way tomorrow?  Tomorrow is a normal day with no specific food challenges.  I'll have oatmeal for breakfast, chicken stew and veggies for lunch, Subway for dinner, and blueberries for dessert.
DedicationHow hard am I willing to work?  This is an interesting questions to me because I think I'm willing to work hard - but the fact is that I haven't exercised ANY since trying to find my way back to sane eating.   I've made a commitment to myself to rejoin Curves.  I will go and do that tomorrow after work.
DeterminationHow long am I willing to keep working?  For this question, I have to go back to lessons learned in Twelve Step programs.   I am determined to stick to my plan tomorrow.  One day at a time.  When I think about the possibility of always having to be so diligent, I think "oh, never mind!  It's not worth it!"  But I can do it just for tomorrow.  I can do anything for one day.
Decision-MakingAm I willing to take total responsibility for the choices I make tomorrow?  I do recognize that I am the only person who controls what and how much goes into my mouth.  I alone am responsible for the choices I make.  Well, I believe me and God.  God, if I let Him.  I have to remember what I once knew and blogged about.  The fact that my success is made of hundreds of little decisions I make throughout the day.  Decisions not just about what goes into my mouth but about how I feel, how I react, where I go, what I look at, what I read, who I talk to, what I do, how I spend my time........  All those little decisions do, in fact, affect how I eat.  Because how I eat is a snapshot of how I live my life.

Whoa.  That's an interesting statement that came out of my fingers without conscious thought.

"How I eat is a snapshot of how I live my life." 

What does that mean?

Ways I eat:
sometimes consciously
sometimes what the fuck
sometimes who cares
sometimes controlled
sometimes uncontrolled
sometimes with abandon
sometimes with guilt and shame
sometimes ravenously
sometimes because I think if I don't something must be wrong with me
sometimes without thought
sometimes in boredom
sometimes in celebration

That kind of threw me for a loop.  Gotta think about it more.

What do you think?

Love,
Jenny the Ponderer

2 comments:

  1. Interesting...You never mentioned that you ever eat because of hunger, which is the only reason humans must eat. I think the other times we eat are not "must" reasons, they are "want" reasons that could might be postponed, substituted, or controlled.

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    1. Oh.. good point, Mary Nelle. I didn't even notice that. And yes, I need to think about hunger. I don't think I get to that point very often at all. And that's what I was taught in Weigh Down - to wait until you feel the hunger.

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