Defense: How am I prepared for the temptations that are bound to come my way tomorrow? Tomorrow is a normal day with no specific food challenges. I'll have oatmeal for breakfast, chicken stew and veggies for lunch, Subway for dinner, and blueberries for dessert.
Well, we had an incident. However, I think I was pretty conscious and sane - but I did not stick to my plan.
I have a student at school who is having a very difficult emotional time. It's making her be absent from school on a nearly daily basis. For the last two days, I have offered to bring breakfast for her. Yesterday, she wanted a McDonald's #4. Obviously, that didn't interest me because I don't even know what it was. Yesterday afternoon, she requested a ham and egg burrito from Chili Works for this morning.
Barb and I went to Chili Works before school with me feeling really virtuous because I didn't buy one for myself.
My student was supposed to meet me in my office at 7:30 to talk and eat her burrito.
This was another day that she was unable emotionally to get here at all.
The lonely burrito lived in my refrigerator until 10:00 when I took pity on it.
I ate it. But. I did take the eggs, potatoes, little bit of cheese, and ham strip OUT OF THE TORTILLA and I threw the tortilla away.
I'm grateful for that.
I don't feel like I screwed up. I think I was conscious and sane.
But the story of the lonely burrito does drive home the fact that I can't have in my possession, the things that I shouldn't eat. The minute I figured my student wasn't going to make it to school today, I should have been finding that burrito a new home. There are nearly 500 students and 70 staff members here who would have adopted it.
But..... I'm a social worker. I take care of the lonely, the abandoned, the unwanted, the forgotten.