I've really been having a hard time.
At this time last year, the weight was falling off. I was EXTREMELY motivated and able to be conscious and vigilant about everything that went into my mouth.
This year, I keep trying. And I keep fucking up.
I'll do OK, then I'll get too hungry and pig out.
I'll do OK, then I'll cook something good and eat it all.
I'll do OK, then I'll drink wine.
My metabolism seems to have slowed.
I haven't been exercising. And I don't want to exercise.
Yesterday, I weighed 218. That really freaked me out.
I. CAN. NOT. GO. TO. WHERE. I. WAS. BEFORE.
I. WILL. NOT. GO. TO. WHERE. I. WAS. BEFORE.
So, last night I joined Weight Watchers Online again. It's one of many times I've joined Weight Watchers. Sometimes it's worked. Sometimes it hasn't. But... it is the food plan that makes the most sense to me.
We all know that I don't handle any sort of deprivation well. We all know that I don't handle "no" well.
I joined for three months. Let's see what I can do in three months.
I joined two challenges. One is called "Christmas Sale! 10% Off Your Body Weight!" and the other is called "6 Pounds By Thanksgiving".
Wish me luck.
Jennifer (we got the big girl in control today)