Tuesday, April 23, 2013

It's A New Day. Do I Want To Feel Good About It, Or Not?

I left work early today because I was supposed to work at the track meet.  However, as soon as I got to the track, I learned the meet was cancelled because of the weather.

So by 3:20, I was sitting in front of my TV watching Weeds.  That's where I still am - now that it's 4:35.

I don't want to get up and go to Curves.  I want to just sit here.


I know me.  I know that if I choose to sit here, I'll be disappointed in myself.  I'll get to a low-key blah place.  Two, maybe three, steps up from self-hate.

So...... I'm not going to!

As soon as this episode is over, I'm going to Curves!

As soon as the episode was over, I decided that I didn't pay good enough attention to the last 10 minutes of it so I watched that part again.

Talk about procrastination.

Just as I was about to get up and go, the boys came over bringing another piece of furniture from my old house.  So then I had make the bed, hang four pictures, and dawdle as much as possible.


At 6:10, it hit me. 

I really have to make the decision for health.  For happiness.  For shorts.  For men.  For fitting into carnival rides.  For being able to walk.  For being able to touch my toes.  For seeing a weight under 200.  For all the things I long for.

As I've said before, thinking about doing something is not the same as doing it. 

I.  Have.  To.  Do.  It. 

So.  I went to Curves.  I worked out aerobically on the machines for 30 minutes and then did stretches for 13 minutes. 

And I like myself. 


1 comment:

  1. I relate to that. I have been feeling really bad about myself for a long while now. I decided last week to take my time to plan a months meals to get me on track. It has been so long of eating junk and not getting out running (which I was really enjoying before) that I am having to force myself into it. I know that once I get out there I will feel good about me after. I just need to make that first step.