Heyyyyy! Can you hear me up there?????
I'm down here at the bottom. Not sure it's THE bottom, but it's A bottom.
And I hope it's mine.....
I don't want to talk about what happened to my motivation.
I don't want to talk about how I wallowed in a sea of binge eating and self-loathing.
I don't want to talk about the fact that there really hasn't been much self-loathing - - - not near as much as there should have been.
I don't want to talk about the fact that I've actually been happily stuffing my face with little thought about weight gain, health, goals, looks, etc.
I don't want to talk about the fact that I found an app on my phone where I can make my face look skinnier and, for awhile, I thought that might be an answer to my problems. (Until I realized that I actually see people in person, too.)
I want to talk about my new best friend, Jenny Craig. She and I have known each other for a lonnnnngggg time. We actually have a love/hate relationship.
I have actually been a really BAD friend to her. I invite her into my life, we start hanging out, then I abandoned her because she - well, she just gets boring and she puts a damper on my social life.
She really can't help it - it's just who she is.
But I need her now. And I'm going to try to be a better friend to her. I'm going to include her in my daily life - even in the times that I'm socializing with my other friends. I'm even going to invite her to Thanksgiving dinner.
So, I'm going to go pick her up this afternoon in Santa Fe and we are going to be BEST BUDS!!!!!!!
I'm also going to start blogging again so you, too, can learn to love Jenny C as much as I do.
We'll be the Four Musketeers.
And we're gonna have FUN!!!!!!
Were there 4 or 3 musketeers? I forget....